the very first time

I can't believe I am here in front of my computer on my keyboard about to tell MY biggest second life secret. But I am. I guess you can say I have had a crush on you Swan Desantis for a year now. I know it may sound crazy, strange, wild even ridiculous but I am your secret admirer. No you don't know me, I have manage to maintain a low profile in second life. I even maintain an even lower one around you. I have no boy friend, only one person I consider friend and I stay to myself. I have had this "feeling' for you since I first saw you over a year ago. The first time I saw you, you were with your brother. The two of you were at a photography shop. Your brother was going over how the owner wanted her shop to be done. You seem new, like I was and you were looking around making remarks about the photos she had placed so carefully on the wall. I remember you typing something in Spanish and you and your brother both laughing. The remark was silly, I don't even remember what it was. All I know is at the moment I thought you were interesting. That was my first time seeing you, but fortunate of me it would not be my last.

My second life has always been very low key. I made an alt in order to go to clubs in game an other risque places to shop. Now I don't want you to get the wrong impression, I had my alt because my real life husband (now ex husband) would come on my avie to see what I wore. He would watch what I would buy, where I would go and he would get crazy if my avie wore something too sexy. (something too sexy could of been a part of shorts with a top to show my navel ring. He was for lack of a better word, crazy. So with him being so anal and me wanting to actual enjoy my game time I made an alt. My alt was able to look and dress sexy. She could show some cleavage, her thighs, her butt. I could actually have full lips as I do in real life. Shapely, sexy, you know the type, typical girl next door type. lol. I would go to Club Insatiable under my alt to enjoy the music and occasionally dance. The first time I saw you at the club I remembered you very quickly. . When I saw you I thought wow, he really has an attractive avie. You would be at club, cigarette in mouth, your body movements changing from time to time but never dancing. You would just stand close to the wall as if you were making sure everything was everything. I never seen you all over women, never talking loud, you wore a gun (as you still do *smiles*) but it was not shown to others it was not meant too. You never dress like an Internet thug, always looking sexy and nice. You never blinged out like most guys would to the point if lighting hit the club they would be struck down. Always quiet, always maintaining a sex appeal and a persona all your own. You were getting me hooked with each glance I made your way. I use to think you were with the owner of the club, "Samore". I realize the two of you were only friends when I saw her with other relationships. I have only seen two females who you said were your girls and this has been all within a months time. Makes me wonder what are you looking for. For a moment my heart was broken when I thought you married "Donatella" I realize she was a very close friend and you two just like to play around and joke about her being your wife.

One day you actually spoke to me, lol, OK you didn't actual speak, you landed on my head while at the club. You imed me to apologize for doing so. My heart almost came out of my chest. I thought to myself, "he is a gentlemen too. he is actually iming me to apologize for landing on me". You have always seem too perfect, sexy, mysteries, smooth. With each day that has pass by, I have wanted you. have thought about you, have found my interest growing, each day I .. hmmmm .....

I know, I am just a woman who has admired you for some time now and finally got up enough nerve to at least let it be known if not in but in a blog. You will never read this or even know it exist but I will and I guess that is all that matters.