Temporary lost of my mind

Today I searched for you and saw you were online. I opened the chat box, begin to type Hello and logged out before entering. How could I be so bold, so brave as to imed you and speak. I think I had a temporary lost of my mind. So earlier tonight, after I saw you had logged off. I went to orientation island, grabbed a newbie, gave him instructions on how to copy and paste and search and send. Finally 45 minutes, 100 lindens and a headache later he had send you a note with the link to my blog. (takes a deep breath). I can't believe now that I did that, can't believe that you may even read this. Can't believe how crazy I must of been to even attempt any kind of contact. This is a fantasy, a want that I will never have, a dream that I can only live while sleep. Not even in a world like sl could I think you would look at me twice. Now I feel a little bad for the newbie. I hope you don't question him too much, he really doesn't know anything (trust me it took me 45 minutes to get him to send it). I also came in as a newbie to approach him and coach him. I don't plan on keeping this alt, only made her to do my dirty little deed. Dirty isn't the word I should choose here. it's just doing something in secret always seems to be something bad even if its not a bad intent or dirty. I know this is asking a lot of you, but can you, some how on your profile at least let me know you have read this. Something pg please, lol.