How Foolish

Today I looked at your profile to see if you had left me any sign that you read my blog. I didn't see any and thought how foolish I must be. I am carrying around a feeling for someone who doesn't know I exist. Why would you input a link to a website a newbie gave you. How crazy could I have been to think that was even a realistic suggestion. How crazy am I to be even writing in a blog to someone who will never even see its contains. My friend told me to stop living in this fantasy within second life. I am not living a fantasy, I only am admiring someone who has had my attention for a long time now. Someone who when a club relocated I missed seeing him. Someone who left the game for a bit and I actually missed not seeing him stand near a wall. I would see you around sl on and off, I remember once I saw you talking to your sister I at that time wish I had introduce myself. Shyness has been my downfall in a lot of ways. Many reasons why I am shy but it doesn't have anything to do with second life so it doesn't matter. SL, however, has allowed me to over come a lot my shyness. But even with overcoming so much of it. I still find it hard to approach you and start a conversation. It has been hard to smile at you, hard to get your attention, hard to admit I have a crush on you. No, not true. I love you, there now since I know you'll never read this now. I can express it in words here. I love you. So many times I have wanted just to ask you to go out. Then I feared rejection, feared making to look like I may have had some issues. So now I feel foolish, silly, child like because I attempted to do something I never should have. I attempted to bring my fantasy to my sl reality. HOW FOOLISH!!!!