What's Next!!......

I don't know why but I woke up 40 minutes ago sat up in my bed and turned on my light. I live on the west coast so now it's around 2:00 or 2:10 am. I forgot to set my alarm clock which is bad because I have to get up earlier this morning. So here I am setting my alarm for 7 am, I will be getting up and going to see my doctor in the morning for my 8am appointment. I just logged in second life, I am not really expecting anything, but I am hopeful just the same. Hopeful that you read my note and went to this blog and made a comment on your profile. I let my eyes scan your profile, and there it was ** BREATH** a message from you saying clearly you read the blog, or at least the note saying to read it. Then I saw you demanding to know who I am. Now I sat here in some type of fear. I don't know what I am fearing, but it has now grip me and I am scared. Now I know you know I am there, some where. Now I think you may be thinking I am some nut case and want me to stop it. Whatever IT may be. You may not be flattered that someone has wanted you for over a year, someone you don't even know. So.... now, I think to myself. Do I stop the blogging, change the link, do I get bold enough to let you know who I am. Seriously, now ..... WHAT"S NEXT!!!